As little girls we have dreamt of that special day thousands of times and we still do now I mean, who doesn’t? Who hasn’t thought about that expensive princess-like wedding gown made by a famous designer? That fancy ferrari or limbo with white champagne to go? That sparkling Cinderella looking heels? That little tiara on your head with tiny diamonds on it? Or that garden filled with hundreds of flowers with glass chairs and wedding bells? Those are just a few details of what’s going inside our head when we think of our perfect wedding day.
But those aren’t just the things that makes our “perfect wedding day” perfect.
What is a wedding anyway? A celebration of love of two people who have decided that it’s time for them to be as one.
The perfect wedding day is not about the expensive big things. What makes it perfect is love that will be celebrated. That feeling two people has for each other. The promise of being together no matter how hard and complicated and twisted it gets. It’s about treasuring one another and giving all you’ve got to the other. It’s the promise of a lifetime. The promise of holding on even when there’s nothing to hold. It’s the start of a new book with two in love authors. It’s the start of living life together and experiencing moments together. It’s creating a family with the person you love. It’s about building a home and foundation.
But most of all, the person who you’re willing to spend all those and more, wants the same with you, that’s what makes your wedding day perfect.
As cliche as it sounds, people come and go. For once they will be by your side and guide you but for most they’ll be strangers showing you fake faces and attitudes. They’re your friends for a while, when everything’s just fun and joyful but when it gets boring, they will eventually, slowly and gradually stay away. When nothing’s interesting anymore, that’s when you see how many people in your life are real and how many are not.
People is and will never be real. WHY?
Most people don’t get contented. They won’t settle until they get the best. I mean, there’s nothing wrong with running after the best but sometimes, “the best” that they’re looking for is what they’ve left. People need to observe a little more. People need to think throughly before deciding. Even if that means running the question around your head a million times over.
We should try to look at things differently, sometimes. Cause when we start to look at it that way, things will eventually change a bit. And its a good kind of change, I’d say. Not because something gets boring means it should end. Where’s the fun in giving up something you never truly recognized? The realest things in life are those that’s been observed. Little by little, piece by piece. The realest things is like a flower-something you never thought would be a masterpiece.
Look into people’s eyes and observe. Don’t just leave when things go wrong. You might just found the best that you’re looking for, don’t miss out.
We don’t just love it, we live for it.
It’s what we start our mornings with, usually to kickstart the day. It’s what we drink when we want to be energized or when we want to lit up our body. It’s what we end our days with, no matter how rough it may be. Coffee can instantly shift our moods and wake us up. Coffee is indeed our bestfriend. Though it may take a while to get the perfect blend, we still wait for it because coffee is worth it, we can always settle for the right blend until it gets perfect.
Coffee is within us. It has always been a part of ourselves, and not only with ourselves but also our culture-that we grew upon with. Coffee is known to be a part of our culture because it stays with us through generations. It never gets old thus, it gets better. One generation will end and another one will start, coffee is still there. Each and every one has their own “perfect blend” that’s right for them. And every perfect blend comes with a story-untold stories that have been kept through generations. From stories about how it’s made and where it originated to stories about the people who used it as an instrument of inspiration and hope. This is why coffee shops have their different takes on coffee. Some have it sweet while others have it plain and simple.
Each cup of coffee is different and can only be perfect to the holder. Each holder has a story and each story has a reason. Coffee is indeed, timeless.
When there is coffee, there is hope.
I have so many things to say but I’d rather not.
I want to ask you so many questions but I’d rather not.
I wanted to get mad but I’d rather not.
I would rather not because what’s the point? I mean if doing those will only damage what we have, I’d rather just keep it to myself. If saying things will put our relationship on critical, I’d rather just break every thought inside my head. If asking questions might put distance on us, then I’d rather distance my heart from my mind. And If getting mad will put an end to us, I’d rather hold back everything instead. I’d rather not because I love you. Even when it means being mentally killed by my thoughts, I’d still rather not. Seeing you happy and knowing that you love me, is worth all the “I’d rather not’s” that there will ever be.
I miss the way things were. I miss how easy my life was. I miss how I could just laugh at every little thing around me and not worry about anything, at all. I miss how easy I can forget things. I miss being careless about the things that surround me. I miss my old self-the one who always smile,the one who doesn’t cry a lot, the one who always know the solution to everything and the one who built a barrier around her heart. Because lately, life has been rough on me. Everyday I wake up knowing that I have all these problems inside my head, which I want to just forget and run away but I can’t. I wake up hoping for a miracle to happen. Everything’s just screwed up.
I tried to be the best that I can be. For everyone. But I have gone to this point in my life where I started to question myself. Do I really have to be the best for them? For their happiness? Then, I figured it’s time I try for myself. It’s time to make things for myself. Maybe it’s the right time to find myself. Because I have to be honest, I don’t know who I’ve become. I keep everything lowkey. I didn’t want anyone to know that I’m in so much pain because I don’t want them to feel bad for me and to pity me. Because that’s not what I am. I want to keep everything inside me for as long as I can. But this time, I burst out so bad. So bad that it consumed my daily life.
The pain I feel everyday is invincible. I wanted it stop right away. I didn’t want anyone to know the reason why because I know and I feel that if I do, they’ll either misunderstood or take it the wrong way. Sometimes, I keep feelings inside me so it won’t be able to damage anything. I just want the pain to stop. I want to stop feeling it. I want the nights where I cry myself to sleep, end. I want to let out everything so my heart doesn’t feel heavy anymore. I want to clear up my mind. I want everything to stop.
I hope tomorrow I wake up with a big smile on my face knowing that everything’s okay and everything’s back to the way they used to be. I want my life to be the way it was a year ago. So much has changed already and I don’t think I can afford to accept more changes anymore.
I wish I built more barriers around my heart strong enough to keep it safe. I wish I knew how to tame my heart so it won’t feel any pain. I wish I knew better because maybe if I did, I’d be better.
Months passed by and I still can’t believe that someone would exert much effort than what I deserve. You were more than what I hoped for. You’re so perfect in every little aspect. From the way you brush your hair or the way your smile builds up and your eyes starts to crinkle, I fall for that everyday. When you effortlessly make yourself look so flawless, boy I get butterflies all the time. Every little detail about your face is wonderful, even the littlest things.
I saw you get tired. I heard your heart cry at night. I felt your tears pour down like waterfalls. I know the pain you’ve felt.
But, I never saw you gave up.
You were always there for me even when I act so stubborn. You held my hand when I was at my lowest. You fixed every broken piece of me and made me a whole again. You never broke your promises. You pursued me at times where I played hard to get. You never ever left me. You never let me feel the pain. You were so protective and so warmhearted. You took care of me when I neglected myself. You made sure I feel loved all the time. And most of all, you loved me all the same even when I had issues with myself.
What did I do to deserve someone like you?
I don’t know a single thing either.
God loves me so much despite the mistakes I’ve made and yet He still gave me you. All I need is you in my life. No more, no less. Just you.
And it might sound so cliché, but you are my knight in shining armour.
“I know you get tired of me. I know because sometimes I get tired of myself too. However, thank you because I know sometimes I’m hard to love but you never gave up and continued loving me anyways.”
I don’t give you fancy expensive gifts that every guy would want not because I don’t want to, but because I can’t afford it. I don’t treat you as often as you do to me because I lack extra income. I don’t go to some places with you because I know I don’t fit in there and I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable with that.
I don’t want you to hold my hand in public or hug me when there’s people around because I’m still on the process of getting used to all of these. I may laugh at you sometimes or tease you always. I sometimes leave you while you’re still talking because a friend calls me for help or when a stranger walks by to say hello. I always talk about my celebrity crushes and say that they’re perfect or that they’re my ideal guy.
I’m sorry if I’m not a perfect partner. I’m trying my best to be your perfect partner.
However,
I can write you a ten paged letter back to back if you want me to. I’ll go wherever you are if you need me. I’ll help you no matter how hard it is or even when I don’t know what it is, I’ll figure it out for you. I can cook you your favorite dish or make you the dessert that your sweeth tooth’s been wanting for ages. I can make you a cup of your favorite coffee. I can read you a book or sing you songs until you sleep. I can talk to you for hours and never get tired even all we talk about is others’ life. I will love to spend the day with you. Even when we’re just sitting on a swing talking about life.
I can stare in your eyes for a lifetime.
When it’s just us two it’s different. It’s a whole new level when it’s just the two of us. It’s more romantic than sharing it to people who doesn’t even care. I want every bit of you all on my own. It feels so much more. Privacy is important to me. I’ll hold your hand and never let go. I’ll let you put your arms around me cause I feel safer. The way we talk when it’s just us two, is amazing. Every word you say is music to my ears. The sound of your breath is wonderful. And whenever possible, I would record your heartbeat and make it the sound of my life.
I’ll love you everyday of my life. I’ll love you even when you don’t need me anymore. I’ll love you even when it gets complicated.
And, I’ll love you more when it hurts. I love you more than my life and God is and will only be the third person in this relationship. Always and forever.
The rooftops, high buldings or even the mountain peaks are nothing compared to the feelings you keep giving me. You make me high. Higher than all highest possible thing in this world. You make me feel like I’m on top of your world. You’re my strongest addiction. You’re my drug. With you I feel like flying. With you I don’t seem to worry about anything else. It’s all just happy thoughts and incredible feelings. Big problems vanish, insecurities fade, and my heart, who was full of anger before, is now overflowing of love.
You know I’m a bit scared of heights but I’m more than willing to stay up and above cloud 9 with you. Being on top feels like winning a lottery, but screw that when I’m with you it’s more like heaven and paradise. Looking above and seeing what’s ahead of us is exciting. All my life I was looking down but then you came, I started looking up.
Sitting beside the person you love and seeing the same view is beyond a dream.
Sharing thoughts and blickering over opinions with your love is quite challenging.
Hearing each other’s voices and quietly examining each other’s faces is thoughtful.
Growing together and trying new experiences is forever.
A hundred days of pure joy. A hundred days of feeling the whole zoo inside my stomach. A hundred days with small fights that were easily fixed. A hundred days since I saw the light of happiness. A hundred days of remembering you every time I hear certain songs. A hundred days of finally getting out of my comfort zone. A hundred days of trying new stuff and exploring what’s ahead of us. A hundred days of everyday talking, day and night.
100 days of being with someone who truly and completely loves me. Someone so beautiful inside out. Someone so patient and forgiving. Someone who understands me in every way. 100 days of being with a guy who’s willing to give all that he has for me.
This is just the beginning of a lifetime with you. One hundred days isn’t enough for me to tell you how much I love you because words alone aren’t enough. From the moment I said hello, I knew for sure you’re the one. From the day I fist held your hand, I knew I wouldn’t let go.
My heart belongs and will always belong to you. What we have right now is worth treasuring for 100 centuries. Even when we’re old, I’ll always be here. Even when you don’t need me anymore, I’ll always be by your side.
My life right now overwhelms me so much, and I’m grateful for that. It overwhelms me in a way I least expected. The little things that fill my life are those I don’t notice that much. My attention always goes with the big exciting things that are impossible to reach. I wasn’t paying attention to what I have because I was busy paying attention to what I don’t have. And that is the biggest mistake I’ve done. I didn’t care about the little things that made up my life. The little hello’s and goodmorning’s from the ones I love or the piece of bread my little sister offered me.
I thought my life was miserable. All my life I thought I was hopeless. But no. As I grew up and as I continue growing up, I realized that I have a lot of things that some teenage girl don’t have. I have a family, I have my friends and I have someone to share my life with. I may not be rich by means of money but I am by means of love. I feel my heart beating so fast-which means it’s happy. I realized that so many people love me and that some of them are willing to give me more love than I deserve. And I may be dumb to realize that just now but I’m still grateful I did.
Last night I wondered, what if these people weren’t in my life? What if tables had turned? Would I be happy if I’m rich by means of money? Would I be satisfied with the things I’d have? Would I enjoy living life?
Lesson learned, it’s the little things in life that makes it perfect. It’s the little things that makes it oddly satisfying. It’s the little things that makes life worth living. It may took me a long time to realize all of these but I know there’s a reason why I had to go through rough roads before I finally got into the smoother ones. I am truly, honestly and completely happy with my life right now. I couldn’t ask for more.
